Oscar Wilde, my idol.
Then i realised that i shouldn’t change who I really was to please people. I could be clever and crazy in the same time. I could be cultivated and funny. And now i just screw society and its peeconceived ideas. I just screw teenagers and all the codes to be popular I was who I wanted to be. And I was there, ready to kill it
"The fault dear Brutus is not in our stars,
But in ourselves”
This quotation from Shakespeare Julius Cesar gave its title to this novel written by John Green.
I decided to read this novel because everybody was talking about it, about the new upcoming movie, there were posters of it everywhere and because I had nothing to do. So I grabbed my father’s credit card, loaded it upon kobo. And 5 hours and half after, here am I. Crying and smiling at the same.
I found out that Twilight was no longer a reference in teenager love stories, but this book taught me what real love is. It is not just falling for a stranger because he is hot. No that’s a silly, superficial crush.
In this book, Hazel Grace has a lungs cancer. She only lives thanks to an oxygen tank, phalanxinor and cannula in her nostrils. She only thinks about dying and the meaningless life every one lives. But then, she meets Augustus Waters. Those who didn’t read the book may think: “well now he makes her discover the real world, they fight against cancer and they live together.”
No. Augustus had osteosarcoma, and he is a survivor. They meet in a discussion group.
“I fear oblivion. I fear it like the proverbial blind man who’s afraid of the dark”
As every little soul on this planet, Augustus doesn’t want to be forgotten. He wants people to remember that he lived too. That he fought against his diseases. He wants every body to remember every single dead person.
Together and with Isaac they share their fears about the world. They share their thoughts. Their pain. Because it hurts to be ill, but it hurts to be human too. It hurts to lose family. It hurts to use your abilities. And it hurts to know that one day, you will day and probably no one will ever remember you.
“There will come a time when all of us are dead. All of us. There will come a time when there are no human beings remaining to remember that anyone ever existed or that our species ever did anything.”
“Almost everyone is obsessed with leaving a mark upon the world. Bequeathing a legacy. Outlasting death.”
The truth is that Hazel does not live any more. She survives.
The book an Imperial Affliction is one of the basis of this novel. Hazel and the narrator share the same opinion about dying and it’s side effects. And with Augustus, they look for the end of this novel.
Again this book taught me what love is.
“I fell in love the way you fall asleep. Slowly, and then all at once.”
It taught me that life and health were two important gift and that I just should enjoyed them as long as I have got them. They are little pleasures in life, such as look at someone beautiful, spend time with him/her. Being read a book. Read a good book.
And we shouldn’t loose time wondering about the future but just enjoy today.
“Some infinities are larger than other infinities”
Questions about the meaning of our life. Questions about afterlife. Questions about illness. Questions about love. Everything everything is in it.
“The real heroes anyway aren’t the people doing things; the real heroes are the people noticing things, paying attention.”
I cried in the middle, at the end, and even after. Because this book is beautiful. So full of lessons, of advise, of love. I really recommend it to you, not just to cry, but to start enjoying life again.
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The kimono is a most wanted this summer. Easy to wear. Available in a lot of shapes, a lot of colours, a lot of style… It’s my crush.
You can wear it with skinny jeans, shorts, skirts… But be careful, never wear it with an oversize T-shirt!
The longer it is, the better it is. And transparent is better too!